The days are starting to feel the same to me. It’s like that movie ‘Groundhog Day’. I even wake up with the same song in my head that I feel asleep with. In case you’re wondering it’s Taylor Swift’s ‘Blank Space’. Any of my readers know I love TS but I’m sick of this song being in my head every morning. I certainly feel like a blank space lately.
When I go to work, I walk in and the same song is playing that was playing the day before. The same patients call with the same questions. The Pharmacist that I told to f-off is now the Pharmacy Manager so you can imagine how that is going for me. I come home to the same messy mess that was there the day before. And just like the day before, I put off my writing. I don’t write because I don’t feel inspired. I’m writing now to ask you to think of me and send me some good vibes. I gotta get out of this place I find myself in.
I’m really hoping I don’t have some spirit attached to me. I couldn’t sleep last night. I kept hearing a high pitched noise in my left ear. Most spiritual things happen to my left side. After surveying the room and finding no things that seemed to be making making the noise, I would lay back down only to hear it again. I thought someone or something might be trying to drive me crazy.
At work yesterday my throat felt funny like it might want to close up on me and I smelled a strange smell like sulfur. I am allergic to sulfa drugs and wondered if someone had counted a sulfa drug right before I stared feeling that way, but found out we hadn’t filled one all day.
I need to work on some protection this weekend. I have every weekend off now so I am going to use this one wisely. I feel out of control and don’t really have anyone to talk to about it. Everyone seems wrapped up in their own stuff. Or is it a spirit making me feel like this? Now I’m getting a little worried. Goodness gracious, I swore I wouldn’t let this happen again after that last debacle.