I remember a post not so long ago when I talked about these cycles in my life and the way I behave during these times. I tend to fly off the handle at the smallest thing sometimes or I speak my mind when I usually would not do so. One might contribute this to being Bipolar or Schizophrenic but I don’t see it that way. (Maybe Schizophrenics don’t either). I see these cycles that I go through and I almost unable to stop myself when in the middle of one. I know this is growing toward further enlightenment and that lessons are being learned at the same time I am being given things I have asked the Universe for. Read my “Cycles” post here. As I re-read that post, written much longer ago than I thought, I realized that I am still kinda in the same place. Sure, cycles have come and gone, but I feel like I am dealing with the same situation again.
Anyway, long story short I told my boss, “F— you!” after I had been listening to his mouth for far too long. I truly didn’t care if I got fired, but somewhere inside myself I knew I wouldn’t be fired. All the more reason to think that maybe I am not done at that pharmacy. We had been arguing quite a bit that day, my boss and I, which I am apt to do from time to time. He accused me of being a liar and I went off. I may lie to myself every now and again but I have made a great effort to not lie to people. I used to lie all the time and I have learned and earned so much by telling the truth that I almost can’t help myself these days. So when the boss accuses me of lying, I take great offense to this. I suppose I shouldn’t care what he thinks, but he will spread his stories all over the pharmacy when I am not there so I want to make sure my “F— you” got well documented in the tale.
It was really quite refreshing although it was hard to sit back and enjoy this right away because with my tirade came more tirades. I was on a roll. I literally seeked out others to whom I had some things to say. I wanted to make sure the hard-to-swallow truth came out while I still had the balls. This was an emotional time and I definitely was keeping to myself as much as I could. I felt change coming over me, but per the usual I am not yet sure what this change has amounted to. I have been feeling myself travelling back in time in my dreams and reliving past relationships. Note to anyone thinking about digging up any bones – they are still there where you put them for a reason. Maybe I needed to make sure of this, and I am glad I did. If you happen to be reading this, thank you!
I was having heart palpitations and was near panic mode just a week or so ago and now I feel myself starting to climb out. My heart beats normal again and I am not panicky anymore. Interestingly enough my boss has starting treating me more like I wanted him to. It seems that saying what I said may have changed the way he thought he could treat me. Maybe he has more respect for me or is waiting to get me good one of these days, but until then I will continue being a Pharmacy Tech until Source thinks it is time for a change. Maybe it is I who will have to decide.
In spirit animal news, I opened the capsule for the drive thru at the pharmacy and a grasshopper jumped right out at me. I was speechless for a minute, but I took this as a good sign. I feel like I have been through Hell, but here is this grasshopper encouraging me to continue forward. I have also been noticing a lot of locusts lately, albeit they have all been dead so far. I read something a while back when researching about the GH as a spirit animal. I remember someone mentioning when the GH had been starved and was needing nourishment it would turn into a locust. I am not sure if this is true or not but seeing locusts might mean I am needing a change, without which might make me feel malnourished. I totally agree with this and identified with it when I saw a locust the other night, dead on my steps. See my “What is Your Spirit Animal” post here.
I have missed everyone. Please rest assured that I am alive and they haven’t locked me up in a padded room just yet.
I am a mother of two, a wife of one and work crazy hours in a busy retail pharmacy as a technician. Three years ago I would have NEVER thought that I would be considering a career as a psychic/healer/medium something. I have not been actively working with my gift for very long and since I have started accepting my psychicness, things have gotten very interesting and challenging. The most difficult part of all has been trying to juggle family, chakras, work, kundalini type symptoms, interests in missing persons, the spirits I see out of the corner of my eye all the time, feeling the need to help lost souls and the challenges of ADHD and much more. This is a very exciting time in my life and I wanted to start this blog to find some people who might understand what I am going through; people I can learn from and share with. Maybe this is my way of coming out of the psychic closet in the Bible Belt - one post at a time.
Psychic Pharmacy Tech 
God bless you Shelley, you always tell it like it is. At first when I read the title, I thought, wow that’s it. But apparently your position at said pharmacy is still in place. I am going to read your Cycles post now. I don’t think you have a mental illness. I think you are keenly sensitive and human and are conflicted about what your next moves will be. I also sense that like me, you do better when you have more autonomy.
love and light,
Linda
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Yeah, I can’t even get fired apparently! You should have seen me – I was crying, bitching, moaning and basically getting out everything I had wanted to say to everybody. I tell you this is not like the old Shelley. I guess I reached my boiling point. I miss you, friend. I promise to come back and read all the posts I have missed. I realized earlier that I felt alone in my crazy psychic life and I know this is because I haven’t been learning and sharing with my WP family.
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Perhaps your guides are preventing you from being fired or you already knew on some level it would be safe. So many times I have fantasized about telling bosses the same but knew m y job would be in jeopardy. More power to you. Please come over and read my stuff. Love sharing with you.
Also, do not judge yourself, be kind.
love,
Linda
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It felt great! I actually told him and the pharmacy manager that I was quitting. It seemed like they were starting to gang up on me so I told them I didn’t have to listen to this shit, I quit! I told them to consider this my two weeks notice. This was said several times throughout the rest of the day. I must have said it like five times. They would just smile and I felt like I was at Hotel California or something. They knew I wasn’t leaving…
It was all very strange.
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Welcome to your world!
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Maybe I should start testing the limits at work. Hahaha my Spirit Guide just about wanted to bounce my head off the keyboard when I had that thought come through my head! Perhaps I should be happy I am getting a little more peace up there and not rock the boat anymore.
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Grasshoppers are good luck..
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I hope so, my friend, I hope so!
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[…] in general. So…this story will start where I guess I left off blogging before. In my post,“F-you”, I Said to my Boss, I had had about all that I could […]
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